I didn’t really understand the word faith from growing up in a home that wasn’t religious. I thought it was just a cliche word people used to place their lives in the hands of some god. The past year I’ve learned that Faith is more than a tattoo on the wrist of some white girl, it’s more than a annoying reassurance from someone older & it’s something I desperately need.
To be totally technical here’s the definition:
complete trust or confidence in someone or something.
synonyms: trust, belief, confidence, conviction; More
strong belief in God or in the doctrines of a religion, based on spiritual apprehension rather than proof.
I wrote Faith off based on definition #2…
I need complete trust & confidence in myself. I need faith! I need faith in myself! I need to fucking BELIEVE in myself. Believe that good things will happen. Bad painful things will always come up, there’s not escaping that no matter what you want to filter out. The good things though, they’ll come. Faith is patience & I’m really lacking on both.
So… This might mean I should stop giving up on myself. I stopped drinking for months & when things didn’t become immediately better I gave up. My counselor says I don’t like who I am sober. I need to give myself a chance to be who I want to be. I have to believe, specifically have faith, in myself. Know who I want to be & go be it.
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